eve of 2008

8 things to thank God for:

- USA TRIP: changed my life
- entry into SMU
- good friends in SMU and everywhere else=)
- $ $$ $$$ breakthrough
- family =)
- CD
- Healing
- love for chinese language restored

不想懂得

well, the one in the middle of the picture has just left for Canada to further his studies. It's sad really. Cause we all got really close only this year and then he flew off. I'm in a really weird mood right about now. Just read someone's Cyworld and had inspiration to blog. hahaha. =) well, I should count my blessings eh? everyone else is home. well, that is... EXCEPT NATKWEE AND PENNYLEEWENYI!!! ...

ohhh and Chloe Park In Young joined our family. =) pretty fun stuff. she came in ONE night before aaron flew off. hahaha. one down, one in.

had the chance to go catch I AM LEGEND with mel, iain and sugi yesterday. I didn't know it was a sci-fi thriller... and if you know Esther well... You'd know she practically shot right up out of her seat every single time a viral-infected human entered the frame. hahaha.. I used the popcorn a couple of time to BLOCK MY EYES. hee. then we had dinner at VILLAGE at heeren, I drank mushroom soup. =)

ohhhh... then we walked with sugi down to plaza singapura where we went shopping at Dorothy Perkins. =) I got a very pretty green open turtle-neck like top for $19!!!! *happy* Rachel dear, I always walk into bargains. =) hee. you owe me shopping trip.

I miss ely and shawn!! sighs... oh well. School's starting in a WEEK! we can "stress" with each other again. =) I love you peeps. haha.

I love my besties, it's as if time elapses but your friendships don't change.

reminder to self:
- worship tmr
- walk with cara sunday
- jon's house 3.30pm monday.
- CT party
- sugi leaves 3rd jan
- natkwee leaves 17th jan
- mel leaves 26th jan

2007 passes before my eyes...

there are many things to be thankful for this year. one of them being the restoration of family and friends. so many exciting and new things await in 2008. but before the year passes, perhaps it is time to reflect a bit before moving on.

This year has been a year of tremendous miracles and breakthroughs. I have learnt many things from the Lord and many things from people. Some of which include the fact that people are not always trustworthy and that emotions sometimes can be deceiving. haha. I know this may sound bitter, but it's not. It is a lesson well learnt especially in the wee hours of boxing day.

LIGHT scatters darkness, but it has to be turned on first. TRUTH will set you free, but at first it will hurt. :) haha. I understand that now.

To be able to give without expecting back has always been something I have practiced. That's why I think I'm so easily satisfied. Some friends and family say too satisfied sometimes, I know. But, lately I think I HAD expected something back from people...emotionally that is. And perhaps it's time to apply this lesson to this area of emotions as well.

Anyway, BLESSED CHRISTMAS!!! natkwee's home!!! sugi's home! cara's home!! I've been crazy busy with parties... people have liked their gifts... I have liked mine. :) this year is a year not to forget! I hope the Lord surprises me again next year as much as He has surprised me this year. I am looking forward to it. Just that I have a to do list now.

- location (ahahah..stressing stanley and galvin out)
- goodbyes (aaron, natkwee, sugi)
- pick up last thing
- be happy :) I think I can handle that!

* heart is a bit achy now due to all the emotional tension and drama... sighs. Lord I need your strength and Your joy. You have never failed me. Help my faith to rise even in my downs. I love You. May we never forget that You are the reason we live and that You are the best present of all.

Okay, I have to admit... I've not seen a report card quite like this. In fact, it's not much... well.. it's not even anything, technically... on the surface that is.

But let us just take a look back on this semester and you will soon see the hand of God on this person's life.

September, Friday morning at Chapel service- collapse and vomiting. Trip to the doctor's was to take a jab for the pain. Can't sit, sleep or stand.

Monday morning-excrutiating pain in school during lesson. Return home during break. Monday midnight: check into hospital.

Over the next six weeks, I would have needles stuck into me, all sorts of tests taken and a FULL 3 weeks of lessons missed. Not counting the days I had to return for tests in hospital. Projects, homework and exams assaulted me as soon as I returned to the classrooms.

If you study in SMU you'd know how important class participation is and how much you'd have to do if you missed even ONE lecture in a week. I missed 3 weeks- that's six modules times 3- which gives you 18 lessons to catch up on.

Miraculously, I became better instantly one Friday. It went away. I studied like mad after that... writing notes, reading textbooks and being as loud as possible in every class in order to try and make up for the grades.

2 weeks ago I ended my exams and grades started flooding in the monday directly after. Not that good, but miraculous considering the circumstance. And then a bombshell- an F.

I knew things were bad, but not THAT bad. I've never been able to come to terms with an F. I remember depression while everyone else rejoiced over the fact that they would never have to see their text again. I was dreading summer school retakes and the fact that I might not be able to go for the 1st transformation camp in the USA.

I stared hard at this mountain written on a piece of paper a few saturdays back. I stared at it and remembered what Evan West said about faith.

It moved.

My F turned into a C- today because of a technical glitch in the system! The Lord answered my prayers and preserved me in my first year at SMU. "Tell me what is impossible with God"

Nothing will stand in my way now.

YAYNESS!!! exams are over! :) but I seem to be as busy as I was before. haha! gonna draft out my (rough) to-do-list now!!!

1. GYM!!! or pound pavement, either way also good [减肥!]
   
2. church's christmas celebration on the 15th- worship team
3. meeting with SHF president this friday
   
4. hairdresser's!!! :) haha. need a cut
   
5. CALCULUS by this friday!
6. christmas celebration thingy?
   
7. soooo many parties... I need to sort this. PLANNING! (16th, 20th, 21st, unknown, christmas, oh shoot...I'm sure I forgot some...ahhh...)
   
8. stardee. haha! yeah actually...stardee for driving.
9. help 'rents out in the office.
10. live happily ever after. hahaha. right. be happy till at least the 7th when school starts again.
    
11. christmas shopping!!!
    

recently saw two movies in one night... hitman and enchanted. contrasts were huge... I saw hitman with kenneth and luigi (I still owe you monies!!!) lol. and then enchanted with lyds, rach and timmy... hahaha. darn high now. LOOOVVVVEEE enchanted. it's so... HAPPY! :) disney does it best!

update again soon, when my homies return. love ya'll!

OMG... the things I do for school. :)

Carrie Underwood Lyrics

:))) tonight was happifying! I just came back from elyna's birthday partee. LOL. happy happy. ok. that is enough! hee. love to all!

Five Loaves And Two Fishes - Corrinne May

A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly, the day turned into night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox, at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus, the kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out with the trust of a child, he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
To feed them all."

I often think about that boy when i'm feeling small
And i worry that the work i do means nothing at all

But every single tear i cry is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face, i will offer up in prayer

So i'll give You every breath that i have
Oh Lord, You can work miracles
All You need is my "Amen"

So, take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in You, i trust in You

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small

动力火车-摇篮曲


亲爱宝贝乖乖要入睡
我是你最温暖的安慰
爸爸轻轻守在你身边
你别怕黑夜

我的宝贝不要再流泪
你要学着努力不怕黑
未来你要自己去面对
生命中的夜

宝宝睡
好好的入睡
爸爸永远陪在你身边
喜悦和伤悲
不要害怕面对
勇敢我宝贝

亲爱宝贝乖乖要入睡
我是你最温暖的安慰
爸爸轻轻守在你身边
你别怕黑夜
守护每一夜

Via Della Rosa- 8th October 5.15am

I have to admit,
I'm finding it a bit overwhelming,
this thing called life.

It's one of those times again.
When you feel like you've lost control over it.
And everything seems out of your grasp.

It's weird.
I'm always the encourager.
I tell people the testimonies that brought me through.

Sometimes,
you think you're in this by yourself.
No one else can be in the same boat.

Maybe I think too much in black and white.
The world starts looking like that after a while.
Devoid of colour... and of life.

But, I always have this nagging feeling
"You're not alone"
It was born in me.

It's just that,
I know I have not let it grown.
I've given in to the world and cut off the nutrients it needed.

Many times I know the answer,
it's just that my feet won't take me there.
My heart needs to get stronger.

Dreams are beautiful things,
easily distorted or awoken by reality.
Is faith a dream?

I know the answer.
But why is it so difficult get there?

It's because the Via Della Rosa was hard to walk.

Hi all! Just thought I'd briefly blog tonight. Have an upcoming calculus paper on Saturday night!!! aggghhhh....

But, hope you guys and gals liked the blog layout change. I personally like it although I think the links could be more bold in colour (trying to get that changed)

:))) Hope you liked the 黑白配 song and overall look as well. As Krystle said, "this blog is very zen... very peaceful" Something I need right now. LOL.

CAFE FAM: WE NEED TO MEET UP!!!

cousins: :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Shoutout to year 6 '06! I miss you guys and girls!!! uni life is uber uber different peeps! hee.

SMU-zers: LOL. TBT, we 8 s-t-u-p-i-d, K-team, SOCISCI F4, Sheryl, Adele, Elyna and SHAWN!!! hello!!! I really enjoy school because of you guys and girls! Thanks for everything!

Daddy's in the States again. SO BUSY! lol. I have to be in the hospital on wednesday for blood tests again. BUT I'M TOTALLY HEALED! PRAISE THE LORD!!!

okok, will be back during my one week school break (NEXT WEEK!!) see you all soon. You're still in my prayers! :) Love and blessings!

hey ya'll. due to many requests to update my blog...I will. it is the eve of my shockwave therapy at NUH... gahhhhh...nervous. can't sleep yet.

many things have happened lately, namely school starting, the berkeleys and FAITH coming to stay with us and the camp! this is a short update (which will be further updated and edited with pictures when I have the time) but some of the most amazing things have happened in these few weeks/ months. dad's trips to indo and china are some of the amazing stuff-i'll add more soon.

yr 6'06 update:
connected via facebook. LOL. mel is home from YWAM! (pic soon)
cara is home from melbourne!

SMU update:
FLOODED WITH PROJECTS, PRESENTATIONS AND TESTS up to my eyeballs. But am addicted to school. LOL. love it. missed lectures due to my condition, but still coping ok. :)) love my BGS prof, calc prof and poli sci prof (will elaborate soon)

made new and very very nice friends. :) I have friends according to days. LOL. it's funny. ELYNA is my superstar! michelyn is my dear and I'm part of the SOCSCI F4. hahaha. long story...but love these girls to bits. I got adopted into a run 4 ftb group, have a celeb and expert for friends and have the craziest, KTV addicted econs group. SCHOOL ROCKS! lol.

personal life:
been having the privilege to spend time with my dearest cousins (extended and blood...LOL) and just being happy with people I love... sister, brother, 5 4-lyfers never change. my cafe family I love you very much... :) and been having those long walks that I so love again. :)

PRAY FOR SPEEDY RECOVERY FOR ME K? love you peeps much! god bless! *mwah*

This is a kind of sad post. This week, not only SUGI but NAT IS LEAVING! we all met up last night for dinner with sugi's barker friends and viet and his gf! ^^ so cute! hee. but... anyway, such is life-we're losing people bit by bit. cara's gone, drish is going back soon... lams is in tokyo... oh well. At least I still have daphne in republic poly, the guys in NS and penny in NTU! ehhhh...SPECTRE (TER!) k. in case you guys haven't noticed, the girls in class are fond of BOLD SOLID COLOURS while the guys like designs and stripes and patterns. LOL. just an observation. OH! and we like BIG BAGS TOO! love em to bits.

SHOUT OUT to all year 6 '06. Seasons of love! God Bless!

There are so many things to be thankful to God for! So this will be my thanksgiving post. ^^

Firstly... after MUCH TROUBLE and many months of silence, I GOT INTO SMU! I'll share with you guys about the problems, etc when you ask. :)

Secondly, I received a SIX YEAR miracle! After seeing so many other people receiving and testifying about God returning our lost items, I finally had a miracle happen to me!

see this Menorah necklace? The menorah were the seven golden candlesticks that were found in the tabernacle in the old testament. My dad bought it for my mum 12 years ago in Israel and gave it to her. It is hand carved, with the words "JERUSALEM" on the top of the candle sticks and it is filled with raw diamonds. anyway, in Malacca six years ago, someone STOLE this necklace from me. After returning from the USA trip, the angel of the Lord returned it to me by placing it in my grandmother's bag! AMAZING! And my grandmother's bag was empty when she last checked before this miracle occurred! WOOT!

another really cool thing that happened is that I was commenting back and forth with samantha on friendster and then I BUMPED INTO HER at holland village on saturday night after the musical! HOW COOL IS THAT!?!

THE MUSICAL "JOSEPH AND THE AMAZING TECHNICOLOUR DREAMCOAT" by ACS International was FANTASTIC! You guys were totally AWESOME! I thank God that I had the opportunity to work with you guys and girls! :))))) It was an honour! TO THOSE WHO MISSED IT: OMG!?! HOW COULD YOU! It was in SCHOOL! pix are as follows:

THE EGG PLANT FARMER IS BACK!!!! :)))))

Went to the airport on tuesday to get her with penny and nat. Met drish and karan at the airport! omg. haven't seen them in a long time! haha. bunking with nat again tmr night. I had a good time talking with the girls after FOREVER. can't wait for this saturday! miss them too much! ok. will blog more soon. nites!

this is one of my favourite photos from the ministry-cum-vacation trip to the USA. (the others are a bit embarrasing, yes I sent them to you penny) this was taken in seattle on 2nd july (singapore time) and 1st july (seattle time). we're going to have thanksgiving time later this evening, listing down 10 things to be thankful for on this trip. BUT I have more. so how? ^^ have to blog it! hahaha.

firstly a BIG THANK YOU to all the birthday wishes via email, sms, phonecall, friendster and your generous gifts. I really love you guys and girls lots. also, if it was my birthday on the second of july that means.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWINNY TAN CHUN HOE!

this also means sorry to RUENGJARUWATANA JIRAPORN for not being in singapore for her chalet party. :))

anyway, listing reasons why I'm thankful:

1. awesome presence of God in the meetings we went to. The Lord really sharpened my gifts on this trip.
2. LOTS OF MIRACLES! cancers were healed, mental illnesses, etc. [MAN! do I have stories to tell you guys and dolls]
3. NEW/ RESTORED friendships and relationships. LOVED staying with the Lukes and meeting JAYSON!!! ^^ (oh and lily and puppy too)
4. very very interesting flights. [another group of stories to tell]
5. meeting very cool people. faith, james (jamez) and joy (joie) in seattle. michelle, brandon and pastor everett (OMG! the dude can sing 4 octaves!) in orlando.
6. loved the weather and scenery in seattle. MOUNTAINS! VALLEYS! LAKES! RIVERS! THE SOUND! 9-15 degree temperatures! woot!
7. loved spirt food community church's worship. :))
8. had 8 hours in disney world. (what more can I say?) ^^ BLISS!
9. went to victoria's secret for the first time in my life-EVER. haha. with 2 guys. will tell you the entertaining tales if you ask.
10. had a very special cake made for me on my birthday in LA. ^^
11. went to a hollywood photoshoot and then had one with sis. sheesh. talk about prophetic.
12. sat business class for the very first time in my life. boy was that cool!
13. walked around sleeveless and not having to be self-conscious whatsoever. [LIBERATING!] GOT A TAN IN FLORIDA!
14. travelling to so many places in 2 weeks. taipei, seattle, las vegas, LA, charlotte, orlando, oakland, ontario (west palm springs, not canada...lol)
15. FINDING SHOES! that were pretty and in my size!!
16. shopping in between ministering. hahaha. that was fun!
17. getting priority passes to universal studios.
18. challenging a trauma from the past. rode on SPLASH MOUNTAIN and got totally soaked with sis and bro!
19. laughing, crying and praying with family.
20. almond and vanilla soy milk. !!!! only in L.A. people.
21. Baby Back ribs, country fried chicken steak, fried apples, fillet mignon, salmon pasta, mexican food... hey people: I'M OFFICIALLY ON AN ALL FRUITS AND VEGGIES DIET with lots of exercise for the next 1 month. kristi is not alone.
22. seeing people with lives totally changed!
23. feeling loved and accepted by total strangers.
24. enjoying being an individual, but also having strong family ties. on this trip we usually stayed in one room together.
25. the sun rising at 4am and setting at 10pm in seattle. BOY WAS THAT WEIRD!
26. God making this trip possible. ^^

so I guess that's it for now. gonna clear my emails! God Bless you guys! see ya'll real soon! :)))

^^ loved L.A. am back in arlington, washington now. came in at 4am seattle time. was in Florida for the past week. had lots of sun. and visited CELEBRATION OF PRAISE church in Clermont. it's on a hill. lol. very pretty. met dick and pam camvender in Florida and visited their cabin! hee. have another meetng tomorrow and then we're flying out of L.A and home on my birthday (USA time) sheesh. loved this trip but am extremely tired. Ministry is very tiring. LOL. have lots of stories to update you guys and girls on when I get home. miss and love you! God Bless!

last night was totally awesome! It's about 11.42pm in Singapore, early morning in L.A. wow! all the warfare before coming for this trip is absolutely worth it! wow! all I can say is that word. last night went to "giant killers" that was held in this cheerleading arena in pasadena. woot! the anointing was so strong, dad didn't touch anyone, all he did was speak and BAM! people went out on the floor. During prayer, I kinda forgot that this girl had no one behind her and prayed for her, and she got slained... I was like.... AHHHHHH!!! OOPS! OH NO! I forgot. hahhaa. but thank god the floor was the springy gym mat kind. :))))

saw lots of familiar movie star faces, but the awesome thing last night was the PRESENCE and the ANOINTING of the LORD. wow! full ministry report from dad soon I bet. well, gotta go be a blessing for another day! I love you guys and girls! GB! *mwah* ^^

I'm now in L.A!!!! ^_^ I'm staying at aunt sophia's and uncle derek's house. haha. We flew in from seattle via las vegas... NAT!!! I got you a really funky gift that you'd laugh at so bad when you get it. we had a fantastic time of prayer and prophesy last night and I saw the whole of washington state by vision-how cool is that? every leg of the trip gets more and more exciting. I'll update you guys soon after tomorrow night's meeting. (I might be meeting ZEKE from high school musical!!!) hee. keep us in prayer! :)))) goodnight!

it's about 1pm here in Arlington, Washington state, USA. i'm sitting here in the hotel typing this blog post now. :))) got in last night at about 7pm and went straight to bed at 10.30pm. woke up at 4.23am though. WASHINGTON STATE IS BEAUTIFUL!!!! I looked out my window and saw the mountains and the border of canada. SNOW CAPPED MOUNTAINS. and it's about 20 degrees in the day and about 9 degrees at night here. It's absolutely cool and beautiful. also, we're about to go into L.A tomorrow. tonight we have a meeting in Marysville. Also, since it's summer time, the sun rises at 5am and sets at TEN pm! lol. so weird. ^^

hahaha. typing to keep myself awake. saw mount rainier and met another korean gentleman at the mailing post. hee, also...we sat next to a PASTOR on our flight to seattle. hahaha. talk about divine connections. kk. gonna go out into the bright sunshine now. :)) cya'll soon!

hahaha... omg.. how cool is this? I'm about 5 hours away from Singapore. ^_^ at the free internet zone in taiwan waiting for my connecting flight to Seattle. The airport is really quiet at this hour. It's the dragon boat festival over here and the airport is filled with lanterns. :))) hopefully I can get my sis' camera to work and then I'll post 'em pix here.

shoutout : I'll be back soon penny dear (not the same as esther dear -as the deer, I know I know..) haha.. miss you already. natkwee try not to miss me too much. LOL.

taiwan's airport at taoyuan is already familiar ground... had a pretty good flight in and very interesting bouts of air turbulence. hahaha. but the coolest thing was- dad sat next to a KOREAN guy and led him to the Lord in 5 hours! hee. :))) this trip hasn't even started yet and such amazing things happen! am excited. keep me in prayer k?

will try to update regularly. EMAIL ME ppl! hahha. and give me 2 days grace. I'm travelling quite a lot this time round. love you all! God Bless!

p.s: happy birthday timmy! and if you guys ever come to taiwan you have to eat the nui rou mian (beef noodles) and drink mu gua nui nai ( papaya milk... except for nat) don't ask me why they both have to do with cows. hahaha..

pps: Chris, I'm not leaving permanently... it's a ministry trip to the USA.

T-minus 3 days to taiwan, 5 days to USA.

I tell you, it's that natkwee's fault for making me watch 200 pound beauty. Absolutely love it. Now I have "Byul" and "Maria" on repeat in my creative. LOL. I think my fave scene is her reunion with her dog (as follows)

Jenny/ Hanna: Sarangah! (the dog's name, which means love) how I've missed you!

*dog is all affectionate with her and she cuddles it*

then the dude who knew her, but doesn't know her now (it's complicated....go watch it. youtube it even!) appears out of nowhere.

*jenny/ hanna throws the dog she's just been reunited with and hugging... away...*

^^ I love how she goes "BANG!" and the dog plays dead. it's super adorable.

hmmm... been very ASIAN these few months... lol... makes natkwee and penny happy for the korean part but konglam thinks I'm weird about the chinese part. LOL. I love watching 小猪 and 小鬼 on 娱乐百分百. uber uber funny. and listening to JJ Lin...^^ hee. oh... and a certain celeb's blog really encourages me-BIG TIME. it's cause he's so optimistic and cheerful, and also such a down to earth person.

I'm very happy. Monday I am meeting peeps before leaving on tuesday. hee!!!! alrighty then! God Bless ya'll and see you all Monday... unless you're my church members and cousins.... then I'll be seeing you in a few hours... love to all! ALL the best CHRIS!!!! ^^

"Every dark cloud has silver linings and golden showers"

^^

http://www.esnips.com/doc/8e000961-889d-40ac-bb41-01573e55439d/Byul

love this song! all natkwee's fault... she introduced me to the MV of the other song in the movie... love the OST. love the movie. komowo chinggu! kenchana.

My sister has just been through 4 deaths in 2 years. (so has arron yan) That's terrible. I wonder how people cope with these things. For me, I knew I was gonna cry but I didn't really feel grief... the whole day I just felt horrible. And considering the church is just next door to the office, I kept seeing the piano the whole day. sighs. and decisions, decisions...

ugh. well, at least things can't get worse now. there's only up from rock bottom yeah? (penny, it would be rock bottom NOT my bottom..lol)

patches of sunshine:
-God gave me a new song (lyrics, chords, everything)
-I'm going to the U.S. of A soon
-I had a really detailed, good dream of a beautiful house
-I have chinggu like natkweeminyi and pennyleewenyi
-my bro and sis are the coolest in the world.
you know what my ten year old bro told me? (TEN mind you) I was joking with him and asked him why the whole family knew about david's passing before me and he said "we didn't want to tell you because we didn't want you to be grieving in your sleep." yea. that profound.
-old friends like gauner, amari and orange who bring humour into my life. thanks.

"This is the sound of worship

This is the heart of the song... "

One of my friends passed away yesterday due to a heart attack. I only found out today. The people around him gave him CPR but he was pronounced dead at the hospital 5 minutes on arrival.

Talk about irony, I didn't even know. And I called an ambulance yesterday too. omg.

He was such a talented musician, pianist, vocalist and sincere worshipper of the most high God. And I worked the most closely with him.

I don't know what to say now. Life is fleeting? He was so happy and meek. And he came from a very tough background- prison, drugs, hard liquor. But his heart of worship was so beautiful.

Brother David, I thank God for putting you into my life, for those precious moments of worship we had in God's presence.

my chinggu brought me out! :)))) kowomo chinggu! sarangeh. yah kwee min yi sshi, lee wen yi sshi...chinchachuahhae! LOL. love them very much.

guess where we went? Amara Hotel for korean food... ^^ and we experienced drama (which involved yet another ambulance- REFER TO NAT'S BLOG FOR FULL and very entertaining STORY) she tells it better and with more humour.

am grateful to God for them. also, we talked about unis. which was important. and penny got us to dance in the car... hahaha. If life finds us worlds apart (or states and countries) someone has got to invent the holographic phone already! anyway, a shopping date has been set for sometime soon, as well as our last slumber party of sorts. ugh. will miss them. oh well... will miss a lot of people too.

ORU? oh Lord...tell me clearly. (not nat pls, not nat..LOL)

where do I go from here?

personal post: if you know me, you'd know why I'm posting like this.

below is a clip from Pocahontas 2: Journey to a new world

(mel knows how much I love this song... been singing this non-stop back in school) but I have reason to love this song... other than it being sung by Judy Kuhn and the music is fantastic... the lyrics really apply to my situation now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UfTieVPjN7E

typing the lyrics:

The earth is cold

The fields are bare

The branches fold against the wind that's everywhere

The birds move on so they survive

When snow's so deep

The bears all sleep to keep themselves alive

They do what they must for now and trust in their plan

If I trust in mine somehow I might find

Who I am

But where do I go from here?

So many voices ringing in my ear

Which is the voice that I was meant to hear?

How will I know ?

Where do I go from here?

My world has changed and so have I

I've learned to choose and even learned to say good bye

The path ahead so hard to see

It winds and bends

But where it ends

Depends on only me

In my heart I don't feel part of so much I've known

Now it seems it's time to start

A new life on my own

But where do I go from here?

So many voices ringing in my ear

Which is the voice that I was meant to hear?

How will I know?

Where do I go from here?

The words from the reprise are even cooler...

In some new place

On some new face I've never seen

I might find where I belong someday

And there may even be another dream for me

Waiting there somewhere along the way

"listen to the spirit within"

Who knows where I go from here?

So many voices only one thing's clear

There's nothing to lose

Nothing to fear

The past is gone

I must move on from here...

haha. just gotta love Disney. sometimes music just conveys emotion beyond what you can say at the current time. just heard the whole S.H.E cd on my com. (can you imagine Kong Lam's face?) ^^ aha. okie dokie peeps. gonna pray. lotsa love!

Faith carried me through.

:)))))))))))))) hee hee. this shows you that esther is a happy girl. I woke up happy this morning! LOL. went out with the cousins last night. spent time catching up with tim and rach (lost 2 years) over fruits and meat balls (don't ask) before meeting aaron at lido for blades of glory. OMG. I have a few things to say about last night:

1. rach should NEVER be let anywhere near meat balls (or shopping centres for that matter) without family to restrain her. ^^ lol. yes, thanks dear, I know all the good places to go..hee hee. let's go shopping again k?

2. Aaron should not be let near me! LOL. he bullies me! *complains* [and then points out that I have no evidence of it whatsoever.] well, ok la... but I must have timmy around to provide the entertaining news. hahahaha. ^^

3. Blades of Glory is (in aaron's words) "rated" and very very hilarious in a bad way. haha. not that I'm complaining-I had popcorn and cousins around. Jon Heder has such a funny face. ^^

4. jordan is the most hilarious australian accented Italian dude I've ever met. hahaha... PAP kindergarten!

5. I realise how much I missed my family. (extended)

6. I realise how much I miss year 6 '06. I met cara, tim, manav and wai leong outside heeren last night and my heart strings were all tugged and I felt like crying... lol. dunno why. * sometimes I feel emotional...* ahaha.

7. met ben liew at heeren too. :)) 4/2 2004. happy birthday dude!

8. missed drishti by like about 15 minutes. :((( AND I was at topshop. can you imagine that?

9. met a cab driver who kept giving lydia and I tips on dating and men. lol. it was very very funny.

:)))) I'm still happy. meeting cara on sunday for walks. gotta meet penny, nat and drish soon. KONG LAMMY'S COMING HOME!!!! oh and I saw how happy mama was last night. I'm happy too. okie dokie! church in a while! cya all soon! *mwah* lotsa love!!!

lams called me from Japan... ^^ she's escaping her homework to call me, I dunno whether to be touched or feel used. ROFL. it's okay, I am a secure person- I think I'll look okay as an egg plant farmer... LOL. I love kong lam!!! call me from Japan...so cool. :)))) *she's speaking in Jap now* why so clever? lol. I'm going to pick up korean just to spite her. haha... but the chinese songs and posts are already freaking her out... ^^ I love you lams! Her fantasy: michael phelps + kong lam = married couple @ BEI JING 2008

I FEEL HONOURED THAT LAM IS CALLING ME FROM JAPAN! - happy now? lol...

daph will be baptised tmr... ^^ I'll update more soon k? love you guys and girls! :)))) God Bless!

^^ hi! been a long while since I last blogged! sorry sarina, a mother's day thing cropped up last minute...while my handphone batt died. ... will try again this weekend k? ohoh and drish... lunch sometime or dinner fridays? sighs, sorry I've been so busy. met my cousins yesterday! ^^ love them a lot! :))))

hey brothers and sisters reading this: please pray for my family and I. You know I don't usually ask about these things-usually I'll be the one praying for you guys. But please keep me in prayer especially for this week. There are a lot of things going on so just uplift us in prayer. call me for specifics k? thanks. <3

so yeah. will update somemore soon! SHERYL!!! hahaha. yeah...my gosh those carefree times pen pal-ling. LOL. maybe I might start it again...haha. yea.. when I free up some of my time. :)))

tong chai! I miss you all! oh and divas... I need your prayers la. Need to meet with you. It's been a month already. sighs. kk. God Bless ya'll. Since this week needs lots of faith... I'll post my fave quote on faith... (for myself and for those who need this word in season)

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. This is what the ancients were commended for."

Hebrews 11:1-2

“信就是所望之事的实底，是末见之事的确据。”

希伯来书 11：1

And then the book goes on to state the wonderful examples of all those who had tremendous faith in the Lord. ^^ lol... so I am strong in Lord and in the power of His might! lol. 加油哦！God Bless!

seeing how as I'm not allowed out (again) at 5am in the morning to welcome drishti home... like I promised I would... haiz... I'm posting this picture of the last time I went out at 5am in the morning..hahhaa...

WELCOME BEACK DRISHTI MULANI! YOU'RE FINALLY BEACK! LOL... I'm sorry I can't be there to welcome you home. I miss you and WILL meet up with you soon.

ORANGE!!! Ruengjaruwatana Jiraporn! STOP calling me to tell me you'll be seeing TANK tomorrow! AAHHHH! not funny. :S minnie mouse mints I get it, I get it. I'll remember. :)))

so well, another week is over and another one is starting. I need to gym. LOL.[ yes, yes-it IS coming out of my mouth] reminder to self- to be fighting fit by July. haha. no particular reason other than it's my birth month. besides, I want to clear out my closet and give my clothes away. haha.. yes, and hopefully get new clothes (in smaller sizes) to replace my old clothes. ^^

God Bless you guys! will see you soon!

^^ good news! we got the seats we wanted on the plane! Going to the USA this June for holiday and ministry trip ( at the same time! haha. how cool is that?) will be celebrating my birthday there! :)))) sorry orange, can't go chalet this year (again) ahaha. and TANK's 700 tickets were given out in less than 10 minutes... :S LOL.so I don't get to see him at RP, but it's okay, yessie and I will hang anyway.^^

hmmm. went to vivocity on labour day and I think the area outside Forever 21, Levi's (melwani...lol) and Topshop is an ACS International meeting point..lol. met annabelle, qi hui, sarah, yung seng, zong ye and er...lots of other ppl there. bumped into silvia kristanto and kang hong too! lol. have been having a good time at church these few weeks-david lam, this new brother, has been coming around and playing the keyboard. ^^ It has been at least 10 years since I last heard that piano..and man! when he plays it for worship.. how the presence of God fills the place. haha. I even sing in perfect pitch! haha.

I love my ching-gu. (penny and nat who is in love with krispy kreme donuts-hence picture) ^^ and daph just called! hee. love you! :) and am messaging a cousin who claims to be hot and has an elongated neck which is stuck in work. LOL. okok la..give you credit... must be goodlooking to be my cousin ya? LOL.

Anyway, life is fun and filled with surprises-you'll never know what you'll get. haha. (updated version of forrest gump's "life is a box of chocolates" ) This version is "life is like a kinder bueno chocolate egg-full of surprises and you'll never know what you'll get." everyday just gets better!!!

recently watched a few more korean dramas and "Little Bride" with Lee Dong Gun and Han Ji Hye is added to my top 5 now. LOL. very funny, nice story too. hmmm. if you guys like soothing songs, JJ Lin's 会有那么一天 is a very nice song. ^^ it's like "Love Me" by Colin Raye. ^^ anyway! God Bless folks! keep your heads up!

phew! busy busy day! am happy for the quiet time to myself. (FINALLY!) ^^ thanks to nat and penny. The girls night out/in was very therapeutic for me-except that I probably din feel them tweezers cause I was so stoned. you two rock (a lot) LOL. sorry couldn't go to the bazaar with you cara... did you get stuff from there? [I wanna see!] anyway, I just felt so nostalgic and it's all that kenneth's (thio) fault. I met him on the way home on thursday and then goh li min (my OG member when I was a OGL in sec 2) on friday night. sighs... posting a picture from my classroom window back in THE day:

haha. never thought about the day when I'd miss seeing this view and feeling the wind coming in from the windows... :S But you guys and girls were (and still are) the best! LOL. wonder how many of ya'll still wear the class tee. Mine's too big for me now... (YES!!!) but I still wear it to sleep sometimes. ^^ haha. people need to experience the GMSS spirit for themselves. we may not have had the best facilities, etc...but our spirit...man! When you meet another Ghim Moh-rian you'll feel like you're meeting family and that feeling of home.. that warm, comforting feeling... hahaha.. guitar playing at the back of the classroom... QING TIAN..lol. all that jay chou and funny random other songs we'd sing. *sighs* sec sch was da bomb! I miss ya'll.

anyway, am quite happy. my dearest quax lent me a WHOLE STACK of korean dramas (rom-coms) to watch! ^^ hee. I'm also trying to get the donut pictures off natkwee (pandafights) so that I can post 'em here. :))))))) please keep all the ugly photos of me for your PRIVATE viewing pleasure, thanks. hahaha. ESPECIALLY the ones with me having lumps on my head. hahahahaha. I love you both-thanks for sticking AND being happy and understanding and all grown up... well.. except for the monkey.. hee. DAPHNE!!!! I miss you. You owe me lunch date (and christmas gifts...lol) once you got your schedule sorted.

YYAA!!!! when will you be free? ^^ haha. cafe, let's meet up again soon! erm, I think I should bug my cousins too. :)))) and and and ...luigi and kenneth... haha. commandos and... CANDLESTICKS? lol. oh! and sam, drea, jia lin too! ^^ so many people so little time.. I miss too many people. hah. miriam! how're you? oh... and sean, sindy, gavin...evan...miles...AHHHHHHHHH... okok...prioritising... sorting...:))) but this is a happy "problem". It shows that lots of ppl love me...hahaha... and I love them too. ohhhh... and maybe iain teh...lol.... wonder if his appetite's still the same.. OHHHH OHHHH MY GOSH!! SARINA HENG TOO! *love* and MICH and JERI... sighs. okok. can! will do it! lol.

God Bless my lovelies... I miss you so. ^^ *mwah*

hahaha.. quick summary of day- cause my previous detailed post got lost when my com hung. met sugi for lunch at his workplace and the FUNNIEST thing happened. he din read the line properly-HE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ON DUTY WHEN HE WALKED IN FOR LUNCH! lol. ^^ so all his colleagues were teasing him and stuff. (gave me a menu, gave him his work schedule.. LOL) anyway, his manager was so nice that she let him work at 5pm AND gave him a staff discount anyway. ^^ and his reply about "numbers" is darn brilliant and funny. ahaha.:)

then went to work, after which I went to cara's just to catch up. had a solid 2 hours to do that. ^^ haha.. I DO NOT LOOK KOREAN! polkadots-pinafores-bling. ROFL!!! chatted with lam-miss and love you! YYAA is my hana kimi buddy! hee. love you dear sista! TANK IS GOING TO RP! ahhh. yessie said she'd help me get a tic. I loveeeee you! :)))))) haha. someone wanted to know the list of MY recommended dramas (and pairings!).. so here they are:

1. goong/ princess hours/ 宫- joo ji hoon and yoon eun hae (filming sequel end of this year!)

2. hana kimi/ 花样少年少女-wuchun and ella chen (filming sequel end of this year! hee.)

3. my girl- lee dong wook and lee da hae [sequel not planned...:( ]

4. it started with a kiss- joe cheng and ariel lin (sequel's filming in progress)


oh... and the British show X-factor is sooo much better than American Idol. ^^ heh. list of recommended viewings! :))) enjoy! love to you all! drish will be home in 12 days! God Bless!