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hi guys and girls! haven't been online for quite sometime eh? MERRY CHRISTMAS (BELATED) and a happy new year! [selamat natal dan tahun bahru 2007] hey van thanks for the greetings. anyway! time for an update!!!

was occupied all the way from the 18th-22nd of dec (therefore no internet usage-collapse due to exhaustion @ the end of each day..lol) in school helping out with orientation camp. Has been great. Got to spend more time with pennywenny (onoez) and got to know the games comm (nic, vic, kermit, dave..lol). I love you ppl. ^_^ "in games we trust..(my foot)" LOL. erm, significant things to note in that week, met miriam...haha...JON!!! PIX PLEASE! spent time with jon and yessie again.. ^_^ and daphne lim rescued me. (loooveee)

yeah. so for the better part of my last 7 days, I was in Indonesia. [yes iain-indonesia, amrit land] so on 22nd night, we arrived in jakarta. loved it a lot. it was a weird thing to experience, but my spirit felt like it came home (I owe to the bit of me that has indo blood...lol) and it has been 10 years since I last stepped into indonesa. anyway, loved jakarta..23rd we had a tour of jakarta by car (no amrit, we did not enjoy the jams...but we barely had them... the cars just don't like you la) but it was super hectic. Daddy spoke at 3 services. One in an AOG church towards the highway going towards bandung...(forgot the name of the area.. starts with a G though. lol.) then at 2 gereja bethel international churches. we did ministry to the pastors and their family. Like ALL of us. kids included. I really was touched by ibu dianna's life and was really glad that we got a chance to minister to her. (SHE KNOWS BENNY HINN!!!) hahaha... one thing about asian hospitality though... we keep feeding ppl. So guess what? I got fed. lol. A LOT. ohohoh!!! and I saw wawan yap and joy tobing (INDONESIAN IDOL! ) serving at the 2nd service-at GBI.. and Rudy Hartono! hee.

so anyway. we moved on to puncak on christmas day... ^_^ It was COOL. I spent the whole day sleeping with windows and doors open. haha. couldn't help it. was sooo tired from jakarta's meetings. then we got driven to bandung the very next day.. =_=" travelling all the time. met crystal and family... (cue photo)

yep. this was on the way back to jakarta from bandung. this was also AFTER I could finally hold down my food without puking, my whole family came down with food poisoning (and were constantly throwing up) in bandung. This photo was taken when I was MUCH better and the wind from the highway was making us high. LOL.

So reflections:

Indonesia is an incredibly interesting place (like I was telling mel) the rich are super rich and the poor are super poor. and they live side by side. Like you see a HUUUUUUUUUUGGEEEEEEEEE and I mean HUMONGOUS MANSION next to really poor, water logged slum area. (And I get what sugi meant about the 12 foot glass windows. lol) Because of us all falling sick, we didn't get a chance to shop but I still went to see the shopping malls on the last day and OMG. surprise... this is a mall called Ciempelas Walk (or CIWALK)

and well, I fell in love with the people and the country... I mean the way we were taken care of (even though we were sick) really made me appreciate the people who are so willing to serve. And they gave me a good impression of indonesians. It wasn't the big churches, the big houses/ cars or the super rich who bought us gifts and food, etc. But it was the friends we made. They touched me the most on this trip. ^_^ Tuhan membergati! God bless indo. ^_^

Michelle Kwan 1997 Ultimate 4 Pocohontas

Hee hee.. had to post another one-with this vid of Michelle Kwan-she's so INSPIRING! I wanna iceskate now! LOL. But she is an excellent storyteller.

Hark the herald angels sing/ O Come all ye faithful

Just had my bath and chat with parents. Mel's party was grrrrreeaaaat! LOL. I got to see my beloved cousin there. HAHAHA. must be a plus point to see the NS MAN-IVAN. Anyway, new friend made-CLARA (a fellow weirdo) and I got to see DIVA there...lol.. I quote him: you + me + holy spirit = darlene zchech. HAHAHA.

Anyway recap of week so far:

Tuesday- DAPHNE (ANGEL!!! and great help!!) came with lunch for sis and I and actually helped me clear my table!!! (look! clean!)

Posting pic of the "friend zone" ^_^ so proud of it.

recognise (some of) the pictures? Class 3/2 2003, fides, K&K's party, class 4/2 formal pic, SCDF volunteers 2001, me in denver colorado... OH! and then the stuff from friends. The "best friend" candle from sugi, the beaded bear from alex and the box from shwee. These were the stuff that could fit. hee.

Then lyd and I had dinner and worked into the early hours of the morning on proposal and programme for orientation camp 2007. I'm so proud of the (new) revised T-shirt design!!! ^_^

Wednesday- Lyd and I woke up and met in school with tabby, mr lim and sugi for a very productive round of discussions. had lunch at food court. BUMPED INTO JIA LIN AND SAM CHENG!!! LOL. bought a pink tee. went to office. had camp post mortem, evaluation and planning.

Thursday (today)- SHOPPING! Walked to cara's house to wake her up (daphne got there slightly earlier). LOL. got a christmas gift from her. (going to get yours!!) Went shopping in Far East!!! yay! Very fruitful, happifying time. I bought mel's gift (the one I was eyeing), sister's christmas' gift and omg... you HAVE TO HEAR ABOUT THIS!!! lol.. went to a shop and I tried on something I liked...but it was so ex..$49.90 (above $20 budget..lol) but this is the cool bit- the lady came in and said "oh...today is 50% off, cause the shop's closing" WHOA. not only that, she also threw in another item of clothing that cost $25.90 for FREE... cause I liked it. WOW. LOL. so can you imagine how God intervened even while I was shopping? ^_^ So I paid... $19 flat for two items. Talk about the fruits of faithful tithing. hee.

Then came home to change, wrap and write stuff... and went off to Mel's. We had fun eating, carolling, etc..So that's it. I really enjoyed myself tonight. ^_^ hee. erm... chatting with TCC (btw, mel calls you chi chuen too! LOL) OH! And I'm so happy to hear from Jon Soh- yay! you're feeling better..my prayers worked!! hee. I have been youtubing lately and watched some good stuff...like this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wazOhkRuySI

Michelle Kwan's 2002 Olympic Exhibition Free Skate Program (I teared.)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hvGBuNlV5K8

TONY BENNETT, MICHEAL BUBLE, CARRIE UNDERWOOD AND JOSH GROBAN on OPRAH! Singing For Once In My Life... OMG!!! The jazz, swing, country and opera TITANS!!!

You know the interesting thing that is a leftover from the camp? I feel more at peace and more settled in my spirit. It is also so much easier to flow in the Holy Spirit's ways. Very cool stuff. Loving every second the HS brings me through. ^_^ Good night ya'll! God Bless!

Hold You Down -J Lo and Fat Joe

HAHAHA... PACKING ROOM!!!

okay... weird way to start an entry. (hey year 6s-remember this sheet of paper from mr ramesh?) But yeah. My bro walked in and went: AHHH! WAR ZONE! LOL. it's true. I shall post pics of my corner of my room. mind you...both my sis and I are clearing the room, so double what you see on my side. LOL. these are the BEFORE pictures.

When I'm done, I'll post my AFTER photos. [may take a few days] hee.

Went to school today to see mrs macs. lol. had lunch and went for a bit of shopping and ice cream with daphne... walked home after that. LOL. and now packing room. SIGHS. LOOONG WAY TO GO! lol. if you want to spend time with me-i suggest you crash my house and HELP ME with my room. lol. I need to redecorate too! (you might want to be a girl though. hee. metros are welcome. lol)

Anyway.. it's the 11th. Happy anniversary! lol. okok. omg... so much to pack now. I need a bath soon- all that dust. Just uncovered some printed emails from when the OGLs and helpers were communicating last year in the run up to orientation camp. Made me laugh a lot AND miss you guys and gals so much. ^_^ kk, back to packing... God Bless!

christmas songs/ carols

"I'm dreaming tonight of a place that I love

even more than I usually do

And although I know it's a long road back I promise you

I'll be home for christmas

You can count on me

Please have snow and mistletoe

And presents round the tree

Christmas eve is gonna find me

Where the love light gleams

I'll be home for christmas

If only in my dreams"

hahahahahaha.. christmas carols and songs always make me feel better. Lol. so does daphne and natalie (for some reason) hahaha... and THAT KENNETH TAN ah. LOL. I fell off my bed laughing. sighs... just went for an evening walk with cara- to holland v and back through ghim moh. My day was so nice- chatted with jon, miriam and chris before I left for my walk, bumped into cindy, syaz, elaine and kim at holland v and am chatting to nat, daph, iain, jesh, Jon Soh, cara, caleb, (loooong time no see/ hear) and YESSIE!! now. ^_^

Just read my sister's blog: http://www.xanga.com/psychedelicsunshine/

you all should read the latest entry and the quote from ashley jonathon beluca. he passed away this year. (my sister's friend)

Hmmm... God's galaxies are wonderful! WOW. Look at the stars...and the sand- numerous and uncountable. AWE INSPIRING! Jesh and I are just discussing how we want our lives to be in God's will, and are afraid that it isn't. I didn't know we had such similar thoughts. ^_^ (she echoes same words.. i am jesh and i like jam says:ohman, i never thought we'd be on the same wavelengths.) hahahaha..

ok!! gonna be happy!! enjoy the pix of the nebulae!!! I think you can guess which is the rosette nebula!!! lol..^_^ have to see mrs macs tmr. goodnite folks!!! (you're in my prayers... and boy do I have a LONG list tonight... much accumulated from the convos I just had) God Bless!!!

I'll be home for christmas

Ironic as this seems, I won't be home for christmas if things work out for the ministry trip to Indonesia. lol. but I still like the song a lot. hmm.. love the warm, happy, fuzzy feelings that christmas season invokes. ^_^ hahaha. been having fun chatting with people online (and on the phone..lol-omg, we're so silly dolly 9th/19th..sheesh) Let's see what I'm up to as of now-this is called boredom:

1. Mr Goh is in NZ in Picton (at current time, he's on the way to Kaikoura now to see Sperm Whales, Dolphins, Penguins and Gannets..lol) been chatting/ emailing him while he's online. He now claims to have a sacred and royal butt due to sitting on Katherine Mansfield's toilet bowl. LOL. [dun get me started.] He also thinks I'm crazy but romantic for sitting outside my hostel room in the dead of winter looking up at stars.
2. Sean thinks I'm the next stacie orico of asia if I put more training into my vocals.. lol. omg.. dun get me started on that too. lol. and now we're hyper talking about ORU. lol.
3. Wai Leong and I are trying to orchestrate a send off party for the boys who are about to become NS Men. Trying is the word. LOL.
4. Excitedly talking about "my little bride" with sister. lol. we both like the show. hee. it's super hilarious but it seems so paedophilic because of the actress. lol. but funny nonetheless.
5. thinking about conversations. lol. that we had. like how kristi and I would have these crazy convos in the middle of nowhere and how I'd laugh till I cried with others when we saw funny stuff (eg. chris dancing...lol) or how we spent hours in mel's house last year dancing, watching movies, eating and just hanging. how I'd be so happy to see kathi when she would cross paths with me. those LONG evening walks with sarina. the shopping days with penny. the laughter in the library with nat and drish. Iain and hugh poking fun at things they found funny.... hee. daph and I freaking out over bio and me teasing her. the walks home and time spent with cara... laughing non-stop over small silly things or the quiet shared secrets. ^_^ Orientation '06. NZ trip... GMSS reunion. Birthdays... hmm..

I love Decembers. Even though it doesn't snow here and drinking hot chocolate is null and void.. lol. Christmas is a season that allows you to reflect. And how interesting even out of all of this, I still fall back on the words that "God is my stronghold". How apt. Mr Goh, I'm going to go hunt down my piece of night sky okay? I like the rosette nebula.. go check it out.

Call me if you wanna go out ok peeps? lol. sam, let's try to do this within these two weeks before I leave.

to you: if you're reading this- I'm assuming you still do, then I think I have the right to ask "do you still not want to talk to me? are you still mad?" afterall, I did apologise for being harsh and accusatory. (a couple of times) so doesn't that mean the ball is in your court? and.. since you din reply am I supposed to assume that this is how it will end? 2 years gone in a flash-because of some stupid argument that was over something that is over now? Remember I told you that I could let you down too? not to think I won't-and you said you'd understand? I warned you that I'm human. you said you know but I wun let you down THAT badly. right. in any case, frens are supposed to be able to work things through-no matter what the emotions involved are. (sadness/ anger) I'm willing to but afraid to talk to you. You don't seem to want to talk to me at all, that's why. So I'll respect that. you are still special to me-no matter what state our friendship turns out to be. I told you that eventually when you find it in your heart to forgive me, then well.. I dunno la- but at least we wun be like this now. a cold, hard wall in between us for 2 weeks. besides, we made promises, no matter what-no secrets? (I still know too much) lol. and you still have to watch goong with me. haha. so we'll wait and see. or at least I will.

penny's going to japan, the twins are too. and nat soon. anyway, Love and blessings (as usual and) as always. ^_^

Dance with my father-Luther Vandross

I'm back!!! ^_^ haha. I know a couple of you guys and gals have been trying to reach me desperately... sorry, forgot to tell you that one of the camp rules is no use of electronic items-to shut you in with God. so, yeah. lol. AWWW... Sorry sean!!! hahaha...

Answers to tags:

Agamemnon: it was a ball.. it's called prom over here instead. How come you're not coming over for christmas? Your sis will be here for a party at jonathan's you know? LOL.

Li-en: LOL. way ahead of you la dear sister. lol. I know. Shin and CG are darn cute after you watch the character development. LOL. love you.

BLOG POST- my testimony:

There is a saying that goes "Christians are not perfect, just forgiven".

I left for this particular transformational camp in a semi-moody, condemned state and I thought my whole world was crashing down. I know this sounds weird and semi-unestherish.. but I DO go through these periods. And guess what? I found out the reason why I was having these feelings. Turns out that I got promoted to the role of facilitator from that of faciliatator-in-training at this camp. I've always known I was made a sensitive individual and a burden bearer, but not to this extent! LOL. As a facilitator of your group, you've got to be tuned to the needs and the feelings of the members of the group and God was training and developing another area in my life. I found it incredibly easy to operate in the gifts of the Holy Spirit and ended up tuning in to the campers' emotions. It turned out that as I shared how I was feeling, the campers were able to identify the emotions and we shared and prayed about them. That lifted my burdens instantly and caused a great deal of freedom for both myself and the campers. A second thing about this particular camp was the amount of spiritual warfare the committee had to go through in the run up to the camp and it was amazing how God worked through our lives after we fought through. This camp was incredibly intensive and I was set free from two other patterns I could see in my life (ask me, and ye shall receive answers) LOL. anyway, it was an incredibly powerful time with everyone getting breakthroughs and absolutely exhausting. [Orientation camp '06 was a breeze man-compared to this] I guess cause since emotions are involved and you're pouring out your heart as a facilitator, you get drained so easily. But I had a tremendous time with God this camp- being shut in with Him gives you focus and a new ability to face life. I want to talk about samech ( pronounces sha-mec) which means full circle. I started off this year in a group called Fides, which means faith. And all throughout the year I felt my faith tried and tested. To me, one of the most significant things that God did was place me back in "FAITH". haha. It affirmed me and gave me a strength to rebuild and rekindle my walk with Abba Father. It's interesting how as I was here being touched by God, my sister was in Thailand experiencing the same faith building experience. This was indeed a fantastic conclusion to the year of 2006 and I thank God for every minute of it.

So this is addressed to anyone who went through/ are going through what I did... In the words of a song:

Everything becomes a little clearer

I realise what life is all about

It's hanging on when your heart has had enough

It's giving more when you feel like giving up

I've seen the light ...

^_^

Turn Around

hi all, last post for a week. Am off to church camp today (later) recap of the rest of the week is as follows: [wait! look at "stephanie sun" ! so pretty this penny..]

Thursday:

picked nat up from her "magnanimous driveway" and went for prata with GCM with cara, her friend and mel. darn funny. ate at the prata place opposite beauty world. dropped at cara's to do a little college search thing. Cara wants me to go Wheaton (IL) lol.

Friday:

went to see mrs macs. spent 2 hours with daph in town just hanging and shopping. bought books, took a bus back and walked to my house. sat in the dining room doing stuff for nat. picked up at 6.15 by mel and iain to go to nat's house. I was navigator!!! (din do a good job-book) lol.

did stuff for lam-IF YOU'RE READING THIS...WE DID STUFF FOR YOU. OMG TAI TAI. SO MA FAN! then we BRASIL-ed. aiyo... the amount of food ah.. 12 types of meat! then went back up to cara's to borrow a dress for nat's bday dinner.

Saturday:

woke up, did worship song selection. went to church. rushed to nat's in a cab. lol. came late. ate lobster linguini...^_^ missed dessert. had to go off to mr loga's wake. yes, ppl. he's gone. spent an hour plus with the family. bath. blogging.

sighs. so I leave without knowing whether I've made peace with some ppl. lol. oh well. we'll see how things go when I get home the day before nat's bday. (yes the real one) erm... OHOHOH!!! Happifying news!!! watched another two cool korean movies. one is called the art of seduction. but it's weird-ish and the storyline a bit warped but highly hilarious. BUT....I liked my little bride the most so far. more than innocent steps. (although I warn you again due to scriptwriting and THAT particular actress-it seems paedophilic) LOL. erm.. tts it from me then. take care, god bless and don't miss me too much! LOL. CHUA LI-EN AND JENNIFER SULAIMAN! we need to go out when I'm back/ you all are free. SARAH WONG-you too! kk. leaving you with pix from prom. (SAM CHENG-THIS IS FOR YOU!)