Open Up The Gates

PICTURE POST!!!! lol...love this!!! these are pics from the SCGS CHOIR concert on Friday night!! Send me the rest of the pics k? Thanks.

Randomness..Fides-Jia Yi..sighs...pretty woman..lol..and your camera angle is pretty messed up..lol..love you anyway!!!

Choir!! (plus jia yi) lol..Regi with can..cute eh?? lol..

DIVAS!!! Omg...sean!!! so dao!!! hahahaha...

Gals..rae hot, mel, lyd, jia yi, me, vic, beatrice

Lydia and I... in heels..hahahaha..^_^

lol...crazy ppl..vic, me and sean..I really like this pic..it's soo zany..

look at sean...he's perfecting the "i'm a ghost" look after the scgs choir concert...trying to be like the diva ghost right? lol..the rest of us infront of the new supreme court..

KK..tts it for now..update again soon!!! ^_^ God Bless...EXAMS!!!!!! AHHHHH!!! *hee* study, study, study!!!

If Tomorrow Never Comes

Sighs... Let me reiterate again: ONE CHANCE TO LIVE ONE LIFE. PLEASE LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST! Don't forget to tell the people you love everyday that you love them. Don't waste your life away on addictions. Think about what people would feel when you say/ do stuff. Consider the Father's feelings and opinions. [Something sad just happened again.] CHERISH LIFE! Don't get into petty arguments-if that person were to be gone the next second-would you regret it?

Stop and think. I love you all a lot. And God Bless.

If Tomorrow Never Comes-Garth Brooks

Sometimes late at night

I lie awake and watch her sleeping

She's lost in peaceful dreams

So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark

And the thought crosses my mind

If I never wake up in the morning

Would she ever doubt the way I feel

About her in my heart

(chorus)

If tomorrow never comes

Will she know how much I loved her

Did I try in every way to show her every day

That she's my only one if my time on earth were through

She must face this world without me

Is the love I gave her in the past

Gonna be enough to last If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life

Who never knew how much I loved them

Now I live with the regret

That my true feelings for them never were revealed

So I made a promise to myself

To say each day how much she means to me

And avoid that circumstance

Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

*chorus*

So tell that someone that you love

Just what you're thinking of If tomorrow never comes

A whole new world

This post is dedicated to a few of my girl friends, starting with my dear Daphne. Never ever think you're not cherished by me. Not even for a second. ^_^ I din tell ya cause I din want you to plunge into depression with me. And this was between me and God. lol..and other ppl who were involved. I'm fine now dear. Thank You for everything.

Hey ya'll...read this important list (from Daph) I love you.

Emergency Telephone Numbers

These are more effective than 911

When

You are sad, phone John 14

You have sinned, phone Psalm 51

You are facing danger, phone Psalm 91

People have failed you, phone Psalm 27

It feels as though God is far from you, phone Psalm 139

Your faith needs stimulation, phone Hebrews 11

You are alone and scared, phone Psalm 23

You are worried, phone Matthew 8:19 to 34

You are hurt and critical, phone 1 Corinthians 13

You wonder about Christianity, phone 2 Corinthians 5:15 to18

You feel like an outcast, phone Romans 8:31 to 39

You are seeking peace, phone Matthew 11:25 to 30

It feels as if the world is bigger than God, phone Psalm 90

You need Christ like insurance, phone Romans 8:1 to 30

You are leaving home for a trip, phone Psalm 121

You are praying for yourself, phone Psalm 87

You require courage for a task, phone Joshua 1

Inflation’s and investments are hogging your thoughts, phone Mark 10:17 to 31

You are depressive, phone Psalm 27

Your bank account is empty, phone Psalm 37

You lose faith in mankind, phone Corinthians 13

It looks like people are unfriendly, phone John 15

You are losing hope, phone Psalm 126

You feel the world is small compared to you, phone Psalm 19

You want to carry fruit, phone John 15 Paul’s secret for happiness, phone Colossians 3:12 to 17

With big opportunity/discovery, phone Isaiah 55

To get along with other people, phone Romans 12

ALTERNATE NUMBERS

For dealing with fear, call Psalm 3:47

For security, call Psalm 121:3

For assurance, call Mark 8:35

For reassurance, call Psalm 145:18

ALL THESE NUMBERS MAY BE PHONED DIRECTLY. NO OPERATOR ASSISTANCE IS NECESSARY. ALL LINES TO HEAVEN ARE AVAILABLE 24 HOURS A DAY. FEED YOUR FAITH, AND DOUBT WILL STARVE TO DEATH.

To Yessita:

I LOVE YOU TOO!! AND IT'S TRUE. TODAY IS BEST SISTER DAY. YOU ARE LOVED. ^_^ see you this friday.

To Lydia:

You know everything and you're my "chopstick" la...hahahaha... So if anyone wants to know about me and my deepest darkest secrets, they would have to kidnap you...hahaha...why do you think I protect you? [eh! you threaten her and I'll sit on you!] hahahaha... thanks...for everything. For caring...like some sisters don't bother, but you do..so thanks.

To Melinda:

You rock. You pray and that's what counts. Thanks. You share the same sentiments about looking after ppl... and love for the most high. love you.

To Nat:

Newfound good riend... you're always loved and cherished ok? Don't have to fear. God will always see you through everything. THANK YOU FOR THE SONG!!! Now if you ppl dun have probs with my blog, it's due to Nat!!! ^_^Love you to bits.

To Drishti:

What? You actually listened??? lol...I din mean to do anything though. Love you too... like really. we spent a heck of a lot of time laughing our butts off last year and during orientation... thanks for all the fun.

To Kristi:

Every hug you give makes things better. You really give the very best hugs my dear.. and it's an older sister thing huh? lol..love you

To Kathi:

hee hee... I love you gal... you always know what to say in any situation. ^_^

To Feline:

I love you dear Feline. Don't settle for anything that is second best. Let God guide your paths ok? And remember that I really, really love you.

To Sarina:

*MWAH* You are the coolest and the best. I love you.

To Penny:

You make things all better. I love you.

To Kong Lam:

I love you and respect you. Wah... envious... he better treat you right or I squish him. lol.. love you loads.

This is My Time

Picture Post!!! (which means I'm happy again)

Daphne and I... ^_^ laughing about something funny. Thanks for all the laughter. And bio.

ack. I love you sista.

Manav and I.. after camp. Fides group leaders. Thanks for the fun.

Sugi... haiz... hahaha... you know la, you know... lol... nothing to say. haha.. love you too.

The best la, the best.. prayer always works. I love you a heck of a lot too.

You light up my life... everyone of you. This song, which one of you tried to sing, but failed miserably (lol) made me feel better after I listened to the lyrics.

THIS IS MY TIME

Oh, At times I felt like I had lost my self

Cuz people try to make you someone else

I had to learn to trust my heart

So things can change

I came to a point

Where I can speak my mind

And not feel I'm living in a box

To keep the girl I am concealed

Oh, I finally found the strength so I can

Leave that all behind

[Chorus:]

This is my time, to shine

This is my place to find

All that I have inside

I never knew

This is my time to show

What I must have always known

That nothings impossible

And dreams come true

Everybody's got the strength inside

All it takes is time to realize

That you and only you

Can be the one to decide I can, I will, I know that everything I want I can do

Believing in my self

Then every wish I make will come true

Oh,It took a while to get this far

But I'm here now

[Chorus:]

This is my time, to shine

This is my place to find

All that I have inside

I never knew

This is my time to show

What I must have always known

That nothings impossible

And dreams come true

Overcoming all these things

Here I finally found my wings

Now I know I'm ready to fly........

[Chorus:]

This is my time, to shine

This is my place to find

All that I have inside

I never knew

This is my time to show

What I must have always known

That nothings impossible

And dreams come true

None but Jesus

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight itself in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails...

Hi...know it's weird to be blogging twice in a day, but there's someone reading that needs to know this. (the truth about love) This is dedicated to you. ^_^ Just to let you guys (and gals) know, there is a awesome, healing God. I know, cause I've experienced His love. He's turned my mourning into dancing. And He's taught me a thing or two about love. The true kind of love, that is. And I need to reinforce a thing or two to the ppl I love. I WILL always love you. And you will always be in my mind and prayers, in my laughter and in my tears. Each second I spend with you is precious and cherished deeply. Don't forget that your actions and words affect me- in whatever way (positive or negative) you choose them to be. In any case, I love you all dearly.

UPDATE!!! MR LOGA IS NOW IN A NORMAL WARD!!! PRAISE GOD AND HALLELUJAH!!!! WHOOHOO!!! lol.. ^_^

Strong Enough

As I rest against this cold hard wall

Oh will you pass me by?

Will you criticise me as I sit and cry?

I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won

Only to find the war has just begun

Is He not strong enough?

Is He not pure enough?

To break me, pour me out and start again?

Is He not brave enough to take one chance on me?

Please can I have one chance to start again?

Will my weakness for an hour make me suffer for a lifetime?

Is there anyway to be made whole again?

If I'm healed, renewed and find forgiveness

Find the strength I never had

Will my scars forever ruin all God's plans?

Is He not strong enough?

Is He not pure enough?

To break me, pour me out and start again?

Is He not brave enough to take one chance on me?

Please can I have one chance to start again?

He took my life into His hands and turned it all around

In my most desperate circumstance

It's there I finally found...

That You were strong enough

That You were pure enough

To break me, pour me out and start again

That You were brave enough to take one chance on me

Oh Thank You for my chance to start again.

DISAPPOINTED doesn't even begin to describe how I feel at this point in time.

Emotionally, I'm drained. There is so much that has been going on, I don't know where to start. But I will.

It started on Friday night, a few harmless words..heck..even I said them of myself before..but it triggered an avalanche of hurt coming back to me...10 years of insults and teasing and bad mouthing... OUCH. Thank God for Mel and my sister. Saturday morning woke up to an apology and cried my eyes out again- with my mum breaking inner vows. Then school-felt numb and concentrated on Bio. Went hotel scouting and choked back emotions till I reached home..and then another round of inner healing with dad. Cried my eyes (and eyelashes) out again and again. Church. Dinner. Prayer for a family friend in ICU. Heard a bit about a party-felt immediate oppression with spirits of wickedness and evil identified. Some of the party-goers could feel it too. Cried somemore when God flushed stuff out. Slept at 5am.

Woke up today feeling relatively good. Brunch. Bath. School-to lock up the classroom. messy room with chairs everywhere. Went marketing. Came back home and called a friend. That's when it started hurting again. He told me what happened at the party. I can't do this anymore... It hurts so badly to be giving and giving (Clarence, if you're reading this...I have tried my hardest) and loving people who do nothing more than mock you and hate you. And then there are the ppl who we teach the ways of God. That hurts more. I'm a PK, I know this business called love... you give till it hurts and then you give up your life for someone who may throw it to the wind.

WHY!?! WHY!?! Why did you have to do that? After we talked and you said you'd try...WAS THAT EVEN TRYING? You hurt so many of us...so so so many brothers and SISTERS in christ. And we love you for who you are. Do you think those who get you piss drunk, high and stoned love you? Do they keep you in prayer round the clock when you falter? Do they cry for you when they feel your hurts? Do they? We do. We love, we give (I don't have the most money in the world to buy you expensive gifts), we teach, we cry and we pray. Don't you see? You're not being tied down!!!! You're being set free within the rules and laws that God made for us. You're being set free...IN LOVE. How can you not think of us everytime you try to do anything hurtful to yourself. We defend your reputation. We stand up for you. We show you the power of the cross. What else is necessary for you to know that we DO LOVE YOU? And if not for our sakes- FOR GOD'S SAKE. He'd bankrupt the whole universe just for you. He send his ONLY SON to die the most horrific death possible so that we would know he loves us. And you didn't think of him? WHAT IS IT THAT YOU WEAR AROUND YOUR NECK? Jewelery?

Lord, I give you my life. It's times like these when I know my trust and my hope is in You. That friends may fail us, that people we love may throw the love we give back in our faces, but that Lord, you are the true lover of our souls. You are the centre of it all. Lord, I know that this period of time You're putting me through is a period of refining for Your Glory. Help Us Lord Jesus.